I left off needing to hurry and get dressed because company was coming! I am dressed, teethed brushed, hair comb!!! (because of getting a lot of my tumors out I don't have very many clothes that fit the tumor filled half of me and the non tumor half. Skirts and shirts seemed to be working the best! That actually makes me happy! (No transvestite issues here) I have always loved being a girl with skirts, and dresses and I never seemed to have a problem climbing trees in my skirts and dresses. Doing gymnastics did not turn out well with dresses and I had to change to shorts or leotards!
Okay NOW we will get back to how sleep went! As I said before even though my body was thoroughly exhausted last night my mind kicked into hyper drive on anxiety!!! HOLLY HANNAH I DON"T SEEM TO GET A BREAK!!!! I am having to make some really big financial decision that will determine the future! Initially the decision is my hands of where to put what little money I have into investments so my money will generate money. I am learning some of the lingo here to! There is passive income and active income! Money making money is passive income! Sean and Sheldon I have felt a closeness to immediately upon meeting or texting with them; which ever came first! Sean is coming over today to take me by the hand and help me with all these decision!!! I know that making all these anxiety causing decisions is why mom and I had such a wild night!!! Mom was ripping off oxygen, the keep my hairdo pretty cap etc. When I heard her snoring I thought of good I didn't cause her stress!!! I was wrong! She was snoring because she was ripping off the oxygen!!! I should have come up to check on her! I was also having one of those rip off all your clothes and bandages night! My subconscious hasn't figured out that ripping off all clothing does not free me from the decisions!!! LOL I am still encumbered with making decisions! I use to think that I had real modern type of thinking when I was young lady! I wanted to work in my husband's office and be the office manager. LOL I have had accounting classes, teaching degree, early child development, secretarial skills etc!!! HAHAHAHA yes I was a modern women... NOT!!!! I truly am laughing right out loud when I think of this!!! Boy was I wrong. I am more than happy to let my husband (If I had one) take care of the finances. I loved when I was able to be a stay at home mom (except when changing diapers!) I guess I am not a modern woman! I am more than happy to pray and be a sounding board. Making the financial decisions is not my cup of tea!!!! Unfortunately, it has to be!!! (Something that I am is a very strong willed person! with opinions! LOL) @#$%%&*())*%$#@!!@$%&*)) Well Sean and his cute family were over and Sean is such a smart and amazing young man and he is helping me have my money make money! Thank you Sean! He is my mentor! teaching me the world of investment real estate! Sheldon, do not question your intelligence! You are a very smart young man! Quit taking all those IQ test! I have been there talking to you when I was on the really strong drugs after surgery and I didn't always make sense and you were able to figure out what I was saying! It takes a very smart person to put the fragments together and figure out what is being conveyed!!!!!
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