I need to explain the difference between Swirling and Spiraling... Swirling is good! It is when there is a lot going on and I am timelining and figuring out how to best handle everything. A little overwhelming that is within the I can handle this range... Spiraling is bad! It is when I am overwhelmed and leaping to every bad conclusion possible with my anxiety out of control...
Now that I have qualified how I am feeling I will fill you in! Last week we had grand daughters over and they went into the backyard to play. I discovered that they could open the sliding glass door, however, they can't close the sliding glass door! I didn't discover this until the next morning when the house seemed cold with a definite breeze. I went to go discover where the breeze was coming from! I was certain that mice, rats, skunks and whatever over animal that I am terrified of had come in during the night! I spent many a sleepless night sure that I could hear them even though nothing was caught in the traps that I sent! (All of you that had the shiver go down your spine... Right?!?!) Mom is keeping life interesting as usual and keeping us all busy with doctor appointments etc! I have to thank all of you that brought over diet coke and chocolate for Mom's birthday!!! I benefitted by living in the same household!!! I have been making decisions on how to handle my health issues and haven't come up with a final decision! The nutritional way I was handling decreasing the scar tissue that I have and was working, I have now become allergic to with all my other allergies!!! Sigh... My brother is home from China where it is uncomfortable to be an American with tensions rising over there! My Aunt has a new lifeline service and the day after she was on it fell and the police and ambulance were called along with family members. I was one of those family members! Good thing she was okay because it was an unkown number and I didn't answer!!! Oh my gosh!!! I keep having computer issues and life events are just not happening on the timeline and way I think they should!!! LOL There have also been friends in my life that have recently lost spouses, sisters, children lately. I feel great empathy for them and the only way I know how to help really isn't that helpful! (I like you bring over food and say I am so sorry! It just doesn't seem to be enough!) I have grandkids that have had birthdays and dance and other performances that I have really dropped the ball on!!! I need to be more organize!!! I wish that was a natural talent for me instead of one that I have to learn over and over!!! I hope they all know that I love them and I am trying! That I really really really love them!!! I believe that I have all of my computer problems finally over... I thought I had that before and didn't... This time I think I really do so I can keep blogging!!! I really need some t-shirt therapy!!! That is definitely going to be on my list for tomorrow!!!
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As all of you know I hate to edit! I rarely edit my blog so I don't know how I became my children's college paper editor?!?!? I have come up with a plan to get myself out of the editor job... I am going to have my son read my blog so that he will know just how terrible I am at editing!!! I just know this strategy will work! My son Mikey had me edit a couple of his papers, however, most of the time he had the cute girls at the college edit his papers.
Matthew is back from Iraq and wants me to be his scribe and editor. I need technical help getting his microphone to work with the computer again!!!! I don't type very fast so I keep saying WAIT!!! Then I have to read the 2 or maybe 3 words I have actually typed back to him!!! LOL I definitely think he will be happy to have his microphone working with the computer again so he doesn't have to keep rethinking his sentence because his mother is so slow at typing!!! My mom always has liked to make life exciting and is continuing along that path. I went out of town overnight and mom got lonely so she decided to call the ambulance. She is back at home and doing as best as she can with that oxygen tube following her around the house. In fact she reached the age of 85 on Wednesday! You go Grams!
I had a wonderful surprise! My son who was deployed in Iraq is home! Just the day before he surprised me, he told me that it was going to be another month until he gets home!!! It was a wonderful surprise!!! It was a wonderful mother's day present!!! I also had good news from my awesome healer!!! The healing energy that I am using is working in some areas! And I also had some very upsetting news!!! My doctor is no longer practicing internal medicine! I want to explain why this is so upsetting to me! He has been through my health ups and downs and thought ir was funny that my cardiologist fired me as a patient!!! And when I went through one of the most terrible times of my life he was so worried about me that he called me at 9:00pm to make sure that I wasn't alone and that I was going to be alright! They don't make doctors like that anymore!!! (confession time... I called my doctor's office and explained to anyone that would listen that Dr Lym could not leave and all the reasons why!! The first time I called... Yes I turned into a semi stalker... They were every nice about it. After the 4th call they weren't quite as patient!!! And not only that they wouldn't tell me where he had gone!!! All they would tell me was that he had gone to emergency care!!! That was so rude of them!!!) I am trying to find a new primary care physician although I know there is not another doctor out in the world as good as my doctor! Every time I think I have life sort of figured out something changes big time on me!!! Once again this is happening... I know everyone is having surprises in their life just as I am. People going out of my life (Like my amazing doctor) and others coming in. Thank goodness Jesus is my best friend! I can't go wrong with him as my best friend!!! My baby Mikey, that now goes by Mike, is on the college rodeo team as a header in team roping! He has a full ride scholarship for team roping! Yay Mikey!!! (That was a good play on words there!!!) 2 weekends ago I was able to go see him rodeo and make it to Championship Sunday!!! It was in Laramie Wyoming! (And yes we were there for the tornado!!! I thought is was a loud train!!! Seriously!!! It sounded like a loud train!! And then all of the emergency vehicles starting flying past!!! We were in a hurry so I didn't look on the news until later to check out what would happen, imagine my surprise when I found out it was a tornado!!!)www.bbc.com/news/av/world-us-canada-44398225/tornado-sweeps-past-laramie-in-wyoming
Mikey and Daxon (the heeler) did really well on the first round! (That means they were fast!!!) Unfortunately, there was a 5 second penalty on their Championship Sunday round. I loved being able to go and see my son and meet some of his friends! It was my birthday on that Sunday and I loved that I was able to spend it at his rodeo and with him, Danielle and 3 of my grand kids! I loved that they sang the National Anthem and said a prayer at the beginning of the rodeo! It reminded me that America can conduct itself with pride and dignity!) It was a great weekend even if I did get the flu!! LOL I have a working computer again and all of the grandkids finger prints are even off!!! I have missed being able to blog so very much!!! My stress level that goes along with all the surgeries and just life in general was just getting too high for me to lose the wonderful tool of blogging!!! I have had a lot happening in my life just like the rest of you!
My daughter Megan has says sometimes I put entirely too much into one blog! Instead of doing that I will just write lots of blogs!!! LOL Speaking of my daughter Megan, now that she has moved farther away I don't get to see her as much and I miss her! (And poor Danielle has been having to be 2 daughters lately!) Since I am going into the missing of people I am going in alll the way... here I go... I was able to see all of my grand kids at the same time twice recently and it was wonderful!!! Not only were all my grand kids there all but the youngest of my kids were there as well! It was so fantastically amazing! (My youngest was still away at college!!! I know... Right!?!?!) Those times were wonderful, however, TO FEW AND FAR APART!!! I miss them alll!!! I have a really awesome family! As I watched my family interacting with each other I noticed how my married kids obviously had good working marriages with a lot of love! (Okay Megan I am stopping here!!! Love you!) |
I am Ally. I am the center of my universe and I can determine whether to be a victim, survivor or thriver. At one time or another I have been all of the above... I am choosing to thrive!
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