I need to explain the difference between Swirling and Spiraling... Swirling is good! It is when there is a lot going on and I am timelining and figuring out how to best handle everything. A little overwhelming that is within the I can handle this range... Spiraling is bad! It is when I am overwhelmed and leaping to every bad conclusion possible with my anxiety out of control...
Now that I have qualified how I am feeling I will fill you in! Last week we had grand daughters over and they went into the backyard to play. I discovered that they could open the sliding glass door, however, they can't close the sliding glass door! I didn't discover this until the next morning when the house seemed cold with a definite breeze. I went to go discover where the breeze was coming from! I was certain that mice, rats, skunks and whatever over animal that I am terrified of had come in during the night! I spent many a sleepless night sure that I could hear them even though nothing was caught in the traps that I sent! (All of you that had the shiver go down your spine... Right?!?!) Mom is keeping life interesting as usual and keeping us all busy with doctor appointments etc! I have to thank all of you that brought over diet coke and chocolate for Mom's birthday!!! I benefitted by living in the same household!!! I have been making decisions on how to handle my health issues and haven't come up with a final decision! The nutritional way I was handling decreasing the scar tissue that I have and was working, I have now become allergic to with all my other allergies!!! Sigh... My brother is home from China where it is uncomfortable to be an American with tensions rising over there! My Aunt has a new lifeline service and the day after she was on it fell and the police and ambulance were called along with family members. I was one of those family members! Good thing she was okay because it was an unkown number and I didn't answer!!! Oh my gosh!!! I keep having computer issues and life events are just not happening on the timeline and way I think they should!!! LOL There have also been friends in my life that have recently lost spouses, sisters, children lately. I feel great empathy for them and the only way I know how to help really isn't that helpful! (I like you bring over food and say I am so sorry! It just doesn't seem to be enough!) I have grandkids that have had birthdays and dance and other performances that I have really dropped the ball on!!! I need to be more organize!!! I wish that was a natural talent for me instead of one that I have to learn over and over!!! I hope they all know that I love them and I am trying! That I really really really love them!!! I believe that I have all of my computer problems finally over... I thought I had that before and didn't... This time I think I really do so I can keep blogging!!! I really need some t-shirt therapy!!! That is definitely going to be on my list for tomorrow!!!
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I am Ally. I am the center of my universe and I can determine whether to be a victim, survivor or thriver. At one time or another I have been all of the above... I am choosing to thrive!
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