My anxiety was been higher recently and this was not a surprise as it usually is higher after a surgery! It would be for anyone. (that is one of the ways I help calm myself down... If this were happening to one of my friends how would I expect her to react!) I also have had some more information come in that has brought my anxiety up to a level that whenever the subject comes up I throw up!!! There is an expectation put on me when the subject comes up on what is my answer to the problem... If they want my answer today they won't be able to get it as I won't be able to stop throwing up!!! (I guess that is an answer in itself!!!)
I have been talking to friends that have been in similar situations and have asked how it turned out of them. One out of 3 have been successful so far! The odds are not in favor of a yes answer! Whenever this situation comes up the only time I feel peace is when I am talking to my savior. He is the only one that I can trust completely. I know that some people feel how can there be a God and all these horrible things still happen all over the world?!?!?! If someone walked up to me on the street and said that I would be capable of doing something wrong to someone I wouldn't believe them. That is why we have to be given our free agency. We would never believe ourselves capable of hurting or doing wrong! We all have a wonderful safety net of our Savior paying the price for our sins, sicknesses, loneliness, fear, every tear that falls!!! Thank you Jesus!!! And the best thing of all is that while we are going through all these things we have love for one another, laughter, hope, laughter, peace, laughter, helpers, chocolate and T-shirt therapy!!!! My friend is getting married in 2 days! I am amazed at her love and hope and laughter and her family giving her support!!! Way to go D'Anna!!! You are a hopeful romantic!!!! (Some of us are a little slow learning how to make marriage and family and ex's all manage some how together. You have this nailed!!!!)
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