I received a telephone call today explaining to me why one of my ex husbands was proclaiming that he couldn't stay married to me! The reason was because I was mentally ill.
I would like to ask all of you some questions... Have you ever been so sad that you wanted to eat (your comfort food here) and stay home? Have you ever felt anxious because you had a set back financially? Have you ever been at a job when you woke up in the morning and you thought I can't take another day with these people that do not value me? Have you ever asked why did I persue this path in life? Have you ever had crying babies with a ton of diapers to change and wanted to scream and run out the door and let someone else handle it for a few hours? Have you ever asked yourself if you made the bad choices or was it the circumstances in life that totally screwed you over? Have you ever looked at someone else"s life and thought they are more together than I am and why can't I be like them? Have you ever had problems in your close relationships and not known what to do? Have you ever been sick and been told there is no cure but we can treat the symptoms for (arthritius, or your illness here)? If any of those things brought sadness or frustrations????? Because if it did you are insane and your spouse should divorce you just like my husband divorced me. People will often use whatever justification they can for the truly hurtful, and selfish things that they do. I started this blog because it gives me a voice and I know we all have things that bring frustration, sadness, anxiety, eating of a quart of ice cream in one sitting, losing ourselves in games, novels, whatever your escape mechanism is and it is okay we just don't want to stay there!!!! I thought that my blog would help to uplift people when times were hard knowing that they aren't going through it alone. Everyone goes through hard times! Sometimes they hit you hard and fast like it has for me this past three years! I tried to stay vague on this website because I did not ask permission to tell about the people involved in some of the stories I have told. Today I am going to be a little more specific. I laugh everyday of my life and I have people that I love so very much that I can't say it in words! I have some of the very best family and friends in the world. I am so blessed and lucky to have them in my life. I have also had the sad and hurtful things in my life that everyone has either had or knows someone that has like, illnesses, money challenges, jobs challenges, times when people have been hurtful to me, I have had people that I love so dearly, betray me, with someone else. I have had people that I love deeply die and I miss them sometimes so very much that it takes my breath away . then I get back up dust myself off and keep going to find joy, playful, fun, goofy, singing person I always am. I am a normal person in a world that has all of the above things happen to us. Sometimes like a betrayal of a spouse or the death of someone you love so very much knocks you right down to the ground and it is a struggle getting back up and staying up. I just happen to have health issues, money challenges, job challenges, death of a loved one and betrayal all in one year! I am making my way back up to thriving and I thought I could help others who have been hit from every side like I have. I am a strong person and I have made it through a ton of challenges just like the rest of you! I am not crazy, insane, or whatever else I am being called. I am amazingly strong, loving, forgiving, and hopeful and even when all that happened to me in one year I can still smile, and laugh, and find things to be grateful for and thrive! The reason for my blog was to help people be uplifted and to thrive with their challenages. Unfortunately, instead of my blog helping people for the better it has been being used for justification of bad behavior.
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I am Ally. I am the center of my universe and I can determine whether to be a victim, survivor or thriver. At one time or another I have been all of the above... I am choosing to thrive!
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