My blog is one of my tools to help get my anxiety and depression managed and I haven't been using it in the way I need to. As you all know that the past 3 years my anxiety that leads into depression I have been having difficulty managing. The past 2 to 3 weeks I have been having problems managing the depression side of my Anxiety. I have had cousin's that also deal with anxiety all of a sudden reach out to me asking to come over or just being there. I am so thankful for the Holy Spirit for prompting them to reach out! There reaching out to me prompted me to pay attention to the negative voice in my head and to turn it around. I have been listening to the music that helps me, however, I wasn't using all of my tools. I have notes of affirmation that people have sent to me that I am not using. I slacked off a little on the blogging and journaling until Sunday when my cousin unknowingly did an intervention. I have been letting myself go into depressed mode. If I were talking to one of my friends and they told me that they had let themselves go into a depression because I wasn't using all my tools I would not be a negative voice to her, I would build her up. Today I am telling myself that Anxiety and depression is something that I deal with I am imperfect and I am okay!!! I am implementing my tools that I have and helping myself! I am imperfect and I am enough!!! I put myself into situations lately thinking that they would help my self-esteem and it brought my anxiety to a higher level. It was a good idea I just wasn't as ready as I thought I was to date even casually and other activities! Lol I have been ghosting the men that I met and other people in my life recently. (That is a sign to look for if you have people in your life that have anxiety btw) There are a lot of things in my life that are stressful.... That is how it is in everyone! The fact that this was a short little lapse of 2 to 3 weeks isn't so bad! I am implementing more of my tools and managing better! I am imperfect and I am enough!!! (Thank you Jackie Rock! You were just the right therapist for me!!! Whenever I want to see how far I have come I remember when you first introduced me to being imperfect and being enough I started to have a panic attack!!! LOL That let you know really fast where you needed to start with me!!!) Time for some T-Shirt therapy!!! These T-Shirts fit so well for me lately!!!! LOL These made me laugh!!!
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