I really believe I have earned the procrastination award for wrapping!!! And for some reason I didn't put names on all the presents!!! Holy Hannah!!!!
I have once again found blogging to be totally more interesting than finishing up the wrapping. I do have everything sorted again and organized to get it done and I have put a consequence for myself if I don't get it done! I am not going to allow myself to go on my date tomorrow!!! Lol That should give me incentive enough to get it done!!! Changing subjects... Now that I am single again I have joined some facebook pages for singles. I joined sexy singles (I totally am!) I have joined rebel singles (yep that's me too!!!) I think that someone should make a singles page about how to present yourself on a singles page!!! Things I have noticed since I have been on the singles facebook pages... It seems that several men take pictures of themselves doing outdoor sports and especially fishing... I have been fishing and had fun doing it with my little boys... Fishing is not at the top of my interest list and isn't on any of my friends list. Hmmm... Maybe a different picture of doing something most women and men enjoy??? My brother tells me I have always been an oversharer and that is why blogging is something I love!!! I do not, however, overshare when looking for someone to date!!! I will never get a date if I did!!! Lol I will scare the guys away!!! I have noticed that there are quite a few oversharers on single group pages. The rule of putting your best foot forward should absolutely be followed! We all have warts and baggage and those can come out later... Let them find out how fun, and that wonderful loving and giving side of us. If we do that we will win them over and the warts and baggage won't be near as scary!!! Having a big long list of things in are interested in I never get past the first 3 or 4 things and I know I am not alone. It is truly amazing what some people write about themselves!!! I know that I have probably shared a little too much also.... I am an oversharer after all!!!
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Today I was supposed to be on channel 5 news about the cost of living increasing in Utah... Unfortunately I was trumped by a body that was found. I wish there hadn't been a tragedy and that cost of living was the interesting topic. I took up all of the DVR room with recording the news. I will have to get rid of it and hope nothing tragic trumps me again. Sorry I had you all watch the news and then I wasn't on it! The past few days I have been trying to figure out what in heck is wrong with me!!! Then I had an ah ha moment! With all of the mess with my health insurance and the prohibitive cost of my meds I went off of them as I ran out of them. Now that the insurance mess is almost cleaned up I have gone back on all my meds and at the mg I am suppose to take them!!! There is the problem! I am having a Hertz reaction!!! I went back on the meds at too high of mg right off. My body needed time to slowly get back up to that amount of mg! Hertz reaction causes a lot of the same symptoms as flu!!! It didn't feel like the flu and yet I have had a lot of the same symptoms!!! I am going to write this in my journal so I don't forget and do this again!!! Hopefully there isn't a mess with insurance again! I have switched insurance companies starting January. They have already sent me my insurance card and all the benefits info!!!! No changing of numbers on me without notifying me!!! I am going to be done with this reaction before Christmas because I refuse to feel bad during Christmas and enjoying the my time with family and friends!!!! Also just an FYI for anyone out there that needs to tell thoughts, prayers, or whatever you feel are a little of kilter feel free to contact me or my friend Kari we get it!!! We have probably have already thought or said those prayers etc. As my T-SHirt my Daughter in law made for me people don't usually understand me, however, anything that isn't main stream I have probably thought it or get it!!!! Just a few days ago I received a text message from my friend Kari telling me she was in Utah. That she would be here until Tuesday. I was so happy she was here and I could talk to her and confess my crazy thinking and know that she would understand. There is no judgement there no matter how crazy the thinking. She even helped me realize that it wasn't crazy thinking at all it is just a part of our personalities! It so is part of our personalities. Tonight Kari and I went to dinner and Kari informed me that she had been given a curfew! LOL Her son said that when we get together it could be 2 in the morning or later when he sees her again!!!! We just have a good time together. I actually got her home in time for her curfew!!! Lol 56 and we have a curfew!!! I told Kari that if I was out in the car in front of the house and it was curfew my dad would flip on and off the front porch light. If I didn't get in within what my dad felt was a reasonable time Dad would come out and stand on the front porch with his arms crossed against his chest. Thinking about that gave me the giggles. Then a wave of missing my dad went over me. It brought back a whole bunch of memories about my dad. My favorite memory of my dad was when I felt my mom was tattling on me to him. (Everything my mom was telling my dad I had really done just not with the flair that my mom told it with... Flair runs in the family!!! lol) After my mom finished tattling on me I heard my dad say that he couldn't believe I had done and said those things and mom must have misunderstood! (Way to go Dad!!!) What an awesome dad! The past couple of weeks I have been able to witness people giving to others with service and love. What a wonderful thing to have happen. I have witnessed people literally giving thousands of dollars to help those with medical needs and difficulties. I have witnessed people giving to those that have lost everything in the fires in California. I witnessed a couple taking the cards off of the Angel tree and buy the things on the list of what they needed. I witnessed a woman put a homeless man into her car drive him to the store and buy him warm coat and clothes that fit him along with other essentials to get him through the cold. It is amazing to me that all these people open up their hearts, wallets, belongings, homes and giving all that they can and probably more. It is so amazing to me. Most of the people I had no idea who they were and I am just thankful that I was able to witness this kind of love. How amazing it all is. I have been on both sides of this love and giving of others. I have to say that it has been so hard when I have been on the receiving end of the giving. It was very humbling and yet when I and others receive with graciousness instead of embarrassment it was a much better experience. I believe that the Lord does want all of us to be on both sides. It may or may not be monetary things that we need to receive. Just like the day in Kmart when I burst into tears because my daughter was gone to a facility and a woman that a was a stranger to me put her arm around me and just let me cry. Sharing acceptance and love is the most wonderful experience ever!!! I am going to make it my goal this year to not just give at Christmas time, to give all year long! and not just to family members!!!
I spent most of the day wrapping (I even used wrapping paper instead of just bags!) with a few interruptions. When my cousins came over that was a fun interruption!!! Fun stories and ideas were shared along with awesome candy with the cousins and Danielle! A blog interruption was needed and a couple of phone calls and some text messages... That is after I found my phone that was buried in the wrapping paper! I am almost done with the wrapping and I can't find two of the presents!!! Of course it was time to have a mini meltdown!
After searching under the tree and were I had been wrapping and not finding the presents I finally found one of them. Now I am wondering if I just imagined buying and wrapping the other gift! I quit trying to find the present and freaking out about what I am going to do!!! Tomorrow is another day... Oh wait it already is the next day! Now that I have a missing present and another present that I thought I had bought for my daughter in law and am now not sure who I bought it for... Mom had a bad day today and also couldn't remember what she bought for who, I have decided 1:40am is not the time to figure it out. That it is time to give my anxiety a rest for the night. My anxiety meds are starting to kick in and so the rest of the night should be a good one. I should be able to relax enough to get some sleep and start over again tomorrow... Tomorrow I have to take a picture of my T-Shirt my daughter in law Dawn made for me!!! It is totally awesome! She did a fantastic job on all the T-SHirts! The gift bag intervention is working! I actually have presents in them! Now the only problem is who did I buy which present for!!! Oh my gosh!!! I usually have a day planner that I have everything written in so I will know what I bought for who... I decided early this year that I hate carrying around a big purse so I went to a little across the body wallet!!! Lol My trying to become a minimalist isn't working in all areas of my life!!! Hahaha!
I started out the day as a normal human being (showered, clothed and looking decent) and as I have been wrapping, I took off my clothes and got into jammies. If I have to do this wrapping thing I need to be comfortable!!! lol Jammies are my go to comfort zone!!! I have totally immersed myself in this wrapping experience and lost my phone in all of the wrapping paper, bags, ribbons etc!!! I had to have my mom call my phone so I could find it!!! Oh my gosh!!! At least the wrapping is finally getting done! (Notice that I took a break from wrapping to write in my blog... I am sure I will find other reasons to "take a brake" from wrapping! That is just who I am!) I had fun yesterday with my daughter in law yesterday! We mailed a package to Matthew and went to lunch at black bear. I had enough take home to feed mom as well!!! She brought the T-Shirts she made for me!!! They turned out so awesome!!! I love T-Shirt Therapy!!!! Laughter is the best medicine!!! Of course my favorite one is the one she made for me! Ooops!!! I forgot to let you know when I was changing the subject! Oh well... I have truly been blessed with the gift of procrastination! I covered my bed with the unwrapped presents. The thinking for this is that it would force me to finally wrap the presents... Ummm… Nope!!! I shoved over the presents to make just enough space for me to lie down so I could go to sleep!!! I did not understand the true gift of procrastination that I had!
When I went to all a dollar I was sure I had bought enough gift bags of varying sizes... I apparently didn't! I hate to wrap presents and I don't know what made me think that I would!?!?! So now that I have realized the magnitude of my gift, I have made the correct decision to drive back to all a dollar!!! I will update up if the intervention of gift bags works!!! When I saw this picture at Costco, I bought it as a Christmas present to myself. This depicts exactly how I feel my conversations go with Jesus! Compared to Jesus, who is perfect, I am like that toddler. Rambling on about how I see life, spirituality, love, and kindness. And since as my cousin Sheldon will agree, I seem to tell things with flair and my own sense of humor. While I am telling Jesus all these things he sits with me and gives me all of his attention with a smile of pure love on his face! I am sure each one of you can see yourself as the child also. I love my Savior! I was told I needed to warn people when I am changing subjects so... I am sorta changing subjects. I was talking to some friends of mine that are not exactly main stream. Actually, I don't think there are very many people that are main stream. What is normal to me is not necessarily normal to someone else. I diverge. Anyway, my friends always feel welcome in my home and with my family. (Maybe we aren't main stream) When I read the scriptures of course I discovered how Jesus went to the lepers and the pariahs of society and blessed them and took them in. He said to us come follow me. To me that means that we should be accepting of everyone. Now I do have to put in an exception. I am not going to bring someone into my home that would hurt my family knowingly. Confession time. I STILL HAVEN'T WRAPPED THE CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!! Oh my gosh!!! They are in a half circle around me and I have thought of everything I can do that is NOT wrapping!!! I believe I deserve the procrastination award for the year!!! This is quite a feat. I have been going to wrap them for 2 or 3 days now!!! LOL I remember when I was a girl my 2 oldest grand daughters age that I WANTED to wrap the presents. I tried to make the presents to be as lovely as the presents my dad and mom wrapped! I was very proud of the presents I wrapped although I know they didn't look anything like my parents!!! LOL It has been a couple of days since I have written on my blog... I have missed it! Lol The house is decorated. All the presents are bought. I have taken some little gifts to some of the people that I am angels for. I have a few gifts that I realized (Now all I need is a little Elf to come and wrap all the presents! 7 kids their spouses and 11 grandchildren make for a lot of wrapping!!!) I hadn't delivered to those human angels in my life. I will have to do that tomorrow. I love Christmas and all the love, joy, peace and happiness! All these feelings are because of the hope that the Savior has given us through the atonement! The past 3 days I have done my physical therapy right after I got out of bed!!! I didn't do it for the whole length of time all 3 days!!! I think I should get an A for effort! My stomach, arms and legs ache so I must have done it enough to get results! I have been bugging my daughter Danielle to get on her morning and evening routine when I wasn't doing it myself! Do as I say not as I do! Oh my gosh! I am now doing my morning and evening routine as well. Now I am finally teaching the way Christ does... Through example!!! I am loving my days a lot more now, and am able to enjoy Christmas so much more!!! I have even had the urge to play the piano and cello again. I want to play Christmas music! The funny thing about my wanting the play the piano and cello is that it has been so long since I have played them I wouldn't be able to if I did play them. I would have to learn to play all over again! I absolutely love music! And my favorite of all is Christmas music! I was singing along with Celine and Josh and pretending that I was singing as fantastically as they do! When you play the music loud it is easier to pretend! Of course when I am driving I can't use my brush microphone so that part just doesn't feel real! Although, I did notice that I was not the only one singing along with the radio and really getting into it!!! Today was a good Thrive day!!! |
I am Ally. I am the center of my universe and I can determine whether to be a victim, survivor or thriver. At one time or another I have been all of the above... I am choosing to thrive!
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