I have decided that I am not one of those people that likes having 4 seasons, I prefer just 3!!! It is so cold and windy and snowy and I am ready for winter to go away! As you all know the only surgeon that will take out my tumors that are all along my lymphatic system is in Sacramento area, making it so that I would be leaving the snow behind me!!! (I think I must be a little messed up to be looking forward to the pain of a surgery!!! Lol)
I think I should have hidden in my brother's suitcase and gone to Australia with him! He has been having a wonderful time in Sydney with friends and on the beach! I think I would have hidden in his suitcase except for the fact he is going on to China. The air quality there is even worse than the Salt Lake Valley's winter inversion! (the rest of the world calls it smog!!! HAHA) I don't think I would last in that smog over there! I am up for any weekend excursions that take me out of WINTER!!! HELP!!!
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Monday nights is the single ladies and our token gentleman devotional at my mom's house. In my mom's living room the couch is in the back center of the room with chairs on both ends. We are studying the New Testament and have a companion commentary to help with the parables and symbols that are used. The older and hard of hearing participants sit in the chairs and the younger two, Pat and myself sit in the middle on the couch. It has become our job to let the people on the right of say to those on the left and visa versa! Sometimes even then it has to be said several times before we are all up to date on the conversation that is taking place! Lol As we are reading the scriptures we need to let everyone know where we are as they can't hear each other read! ;) I love this little group that we have and wouldn't miss it! The wealth of their knowledge is awesome! And saying it several times so everyone can hear it helps the information cross over into my long term memory! Thanks for all the wonderful knowledge!!!
The other night I woke up during the night and couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to turn on the TV. Late at night if someone puts in a movie or TV show I usually fall back to sleep. This night was not one of those nights. There was a show on about neighbors and how some really do not play well with others. At first I thought the show was hilarious, as it showed grown men acting like 2 year olds that have tantruming down to an art science!!! Then I realized that this was a true story and that one of the neighbors ends up murdering the other!!! That is when my morbid fascination came into play and I couldn't seem to stop watching!
I ended up watching 3 episodes! I have loved some of my neighbors and disliked others and I even had a neighbor that was quite good at acting like a 2 year old, however, this was so far beyond that it was hard to take in. I told my mom about this morbid fascination I was having with this show and we starting discussing some of our "crazy" neighbors we have had over the years. It seemed to me as though most of our "crazy" neighbors had a substance addiction. Also, even though we had some bad things happen in the neighborhood because of the substance addictions no one had been murdered. Then I remembered the night that Matthew and I had heard a gun shot in the still of the night and because of the echo we couldn't tell from where it was coming from. We decided that it couldn't be from too far and we did end up calling the police. About a week later a body was found in the basement of a home in a neighborhood north of mine. A drug deal that went bad.Substance abuse and violence do seem to go hand in hand. In the Beware Thy Neighbor shows these people were not addicted to substances!!! This show has totally fascinated me because of this!!! No wonder I became a special ed teacher that usually ended up with the kids that had naughty behaviors. I want to figure out how they tick and be able to add socially acceptable behaviors to their repertoire! Mom is getting a pedicure and she came to mom!!! I can hear mom laughing and talking while getting her pedicure! Not only is she having a pedicure my sister also brought a catered dinner over yesterday! And there was enough for today as well! The physical therapist is coming twice a week to get mom's knee functioning better! Pampering is truly happening here!!! Mom is 84 and she deserves a little pampering! I call my pampering putting on my armor! When things are overwhelming or I feel like I am going into the camp of the enemy I feel confident and like there is a barrier around me. I need to wear make up, have my nails done, my streak of gray along my scar lines dyed, and feminine clothes. I enjoy being a girl!!! Today was not one of my best days. I think I was a little more emotional than usual and having a schedule sprung on me last minute didn't go over so well. I got up and going for the day, made my bed, put all the pillows that I had used making a fort with my grand daughter, Bailey, and started sorting laundry. (All the boring and monotonous chores! I just love those chores... NOT!) Then I discovered that the carpet cleaner was coming and I apparently do not like carpet cleaners being sprung on me... sigh... Nothing seemed to be going smoothly and I felt out of sorts.
Not only was everything challenging to me today, there is also a problem with my dreams lately. I have had several dreams that I am sitting next to God and I am explaining to him that he has misjudged me and there are a few things he needs to take off my plate. God keeps explaining to me that he knows me so well and to have peace. I find myself explaining and giving examples of how I can give him examples of how I am not up to the task... sigh... He is very patient with me and I do find peace. Then a few days later I have the dream again. I think I might be a wee bit of a slow learner. I text messaged my friend to tell her I need some therapy and thankfully she called. She explains that she just barely got home and will talk to me while she eats her dinner if that is okay... I will take therapy however I can get it! She puts her bluetooth in and almost immediately it starts to go dead. She hurries and plugs it into the wall while she is wearing it. She explains this to me and also goes on to tell me that it is plugged in the bathroom as she sits on the toilet eating her baked potato!!! I started laughing and she explained that the lid is down on the toilet. I am laughing so hard that tears start coming out of my eyes!!! If fact I am laughing again with tears coming out os my eyes!!! I can just picture her doing this. Thank you for the laughter therapy!!!! I was recently told that my youngest daughter, Megan, was my favorite child by my oldest daughter, Danielle. Megan has accused me of favoring Danielle. (these are not the only children I have been accused of favoring!!! Really?!?!?!) My grandmother had a lot of wisdom and she said that she didn't have a favorite child, sometimes one child needs her more than another child does. I always thought that was a beautiful way of putting how mothers are with their children. (My grandmother handled a lot of things beautifully. I am not as refined as my grandmother was!!!!)
This whole favorite thing just becomes too much!!! Seriously kids?!?!?! I would never do what Meryl Streep did in the movie Sophie's Choice!!! That movie horrified me and has stayed with me ever since I watched it in the 70s or 80s, whenever it came out! So now for the wonderful T-Shirt Therapy that takes the horror of that movie away and makes me laugh! (Laughter takes the edge off of everything!!! Seriously people you need to laugh through your tears!!!) This wonderful T-Shirt!!!! TaDa I am helping my daughter with some laundry today and I raI n across this t-shirt that I love!!! It says: No You're Right, Let's Do It The DUMBEST Way Possible, Because It's Easier For You. I have felt this way about other people and also about myself at times!!! Seriously!!! Of course hind sight is a 100% (although because of perception sometimes Not 100% Hahaha!!!). I have looked back on some of the things I have done and thought... Did I remove my brain before I did that! LOL I am sure we have all felt that way! Although, I have to say it is much easier to see it in other people than in ourselves!!! I have to tell a story on myself that I did when I was younger... (I am not going to divulge my actually age when I did this as I was definitely old enough to know better!!!) I had a new to me car and I decided that I needed to know some information about it. I played with all of the little knobs and buttons finding out what everything did. Then since I tend to forget to pay attention to the warnings on my car I decided that it would be a good idea to find out how many miles my car will go after the arrow is pointing to E. (Yes I drove my car until it ran out of gas!!!) Thank goodness that when I ran out of gas their were some very nice people that helped me push my car off of the road!!! (Oh BTW my car went 30 miles after the arrow pointed to E! Lol) I do have to say that this knowledge did come in handy when driving across the state of Nevada! I always knew if I could make it to the next town! |
I am Ally. I am the center of my universe and I can determine whether to be a victim, survivor or thriver. At one time or another I have been all of the above... I am choosing to thrive!
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