I had a grand daughter sleepover last night! It was Bailey's turn last night! She is such a little cutie. Since she had gotten her hair cut no one had curled it yet for her! So I curled and of course because it is winter in Utah the static electricity was extreme!!! As I was bringing the brush towards her hair, her hair came flying up to meet the brush!!! Lol It looked like her hair was trying to fly off her head!!! And since I am not adept at photography I couldn't take a picture of her hair in lift off mode and hold the brush at the same time!!! LOL It was so funny we had the giggles!!! I didn't have any hairspray to help get rid of the static electricity!!! I still managed to get her hair curled... Trying to get it to all stay down without any lift off at all didn't happen! LOL I did my best! Even trying to put her hair behind her ears didn't work the best... Sigh... Next time I will make sure we have hairspray!!!!
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I went to church this morning with a friend and had a very peaceful morning. I need to make a goal like my friend has of making it to church as often as she does. We put names in to be prayed for and just doing that helps peace come... After we left we went to get a little something to eat and catch back up with each other.
We have been friends for 14 years now. My youngest Mikey was 5 when we met and became friends. He is our bench mark to figure out how long we had been friends! Time goes by so fast! I have to say that I am so glad that we are long since done with our back to college days! Being older and going to college is not the most fun! Her poor husband had to teach me over and over again how to do the reports in excel!!! And when I took the technology class... Oh my gosh!!! What a crazy ride that was! Saturday, I am suppose to be getting pictures taken at a park and up the canyon. I sure hope it isn't snowing! I need to look beautiful in my pictures because they are going on my profile. I can't wait to see my niece, it has been quite a while since I have seen her. She is a bottle of energy and fun! So here is to the weatherman being wrong about the snow!!! That shouldn't be hard for the weatherman they are usually wrong! I haven't written about how my ex husband courts me for a while, today he was courting me again! My ex husband misses me and wants to see me so much that he does everything he possibly can to make sure he it happens. He had his attorney set it up so that we will be seeing each other for months to come!!! I saw him peaking from under his hat brim several times at court. He acts so shy around me. It reminds me a little of when he was first courting me 39 years ago! Back then he brought me a bouquet of roses, didn't say anything to me, just put the flowers on the table!!! So shy!!!
I understand that he is still totally in love with me to the point of obsession, however, we have been divorced for 15 years... I have tried to tell him that I am just not interested... Sigh.... All kidding aside, it has been 15 years since our divorce and it is time. It is time to let go and move on. I believe he is truly obsessed with me and that the love he had for me at one time has turned into an obsession of vengeance. This is truly sad. All this obsession will do is poison him. He will just be an unhappy and bitter person. Not only is he letting this eat him up inside, he is throwing money into this obsession as well.( lot of money!) This is affecting him in every aspect of his life, emotionally, financially, spiritually and physically. I pray for him all the time and put his name into the prayer circles... My latest prayer for him is that God will send people and angels to help him let go and forgive and move on. It makes me sad to see him so filled with the want for this vengeance. We have a daughter that is single, who has 5 little girls and is struggling! I have been letting her live in my home while I pay the mortgage I do this because her stay at home job (because she couldn't afford daycare) went from a mostly full time job to an almost no work job! I have been paying some of the bills as well. She has applied for so many other jobs and just can't get one. I know what it is like being a single mom trying to make ends meet and working more than one job... I thought that if I took the focus off of me, the ex wife, that maybe my ex could let go a little. I asked him to take the things I was awarded clear back in 2006 which he has never paid me or given me, to use to help our daughter. He didn't even respond. I will continue to pray that he can let go and forgive himself and me and that angels and people can help him. He needs to be an honorable man and follow what the court has asked him to do. If he gives it to his daughter then he is helping all of us and especially those beautiful little grand daughters by letting go of this obsession. If he would let me, I could tell him just how freeing forgiving is. It makes my heart light and I am able to move on and be happy! Please pray for him! Yesterday was a wonderful day! My son and his wife and 3 kids came down from the ranch and my daughter and her five girls came over. I loved being able to talk and just enjoy each other. I loved the group hugs with the grand kids. They are pretty close in age and have a wonderful time playing with each other. I had hope that my own children would be able to have a lot of cousin's when they were growing up and it just didn't happen. I had a ton of cousin's to play with and now that we are all older we are friends with almost all of them. It is so awesome to have family as friends because there is a special kind of bound.
I also got a video call from my son that is deployed! He was promoted to Sergeant! He was so excited! I am so happy for him! It is so funny that he is deployed a half a world away and one of the boys that lived across the street from us when he was in 6th and 7th grade is there with him. When he first arrived there he walked into church that first Sunday and his second cousin was there. This world seems smaller and smaller. We also have friends that make it into the family and I am so happy for them. They have really been a support to my children and myself. I recently was questioning the decisions that I had made. Even though I had prayed about the decisions and felt good about them I started to second guess them. I hate when I do that. It is something that we all do. I turned to my friends that have become family to talk it through and have them pray with me. I asked my Savior to please send a second witness to the decisions I had made. It is amazing how those second witnesses come about. When I am having a crisis of faith in myself it is really hard as I am sure you all know. Self-esteem takes a hit when we start doing this to ourselves. Just having the love of the family on Sunday helped me get some of that self-esteem back! It is so important to keep people around us that love us and lift us up! Of course we are imperfect and are not always uplifting to others and we are hard on us and them. We can turn it around at any time! Tomorrow is another day! I had Bailey stay with me for a sleepover last night and tonight is the twins turn!!! All my grand kids are very active and really don't make it through a movie unless they are singing the songs, dancing and acting the movie out! The air quality here is horrible right now, so we can't play hide n seek outside!!! (I have been thinking about moving to Spanish Fork where the air quality is much better because the wind never stops!!! LOL) The girls keep thinking they want to watch a movie so they pick one and I start it and maybe 5 to 10 minutes into the movie at the very most we are play with the horses in the family room or playing hide n seek in the downstairs. Kenzie said, "but not in that room grandma it is scary!!!" (the storage room that has all shelves filled plus more and is scary dark!!! And say that without any R's!!! ;)) I just put on the movie Frozen for them and they usually act this one out and sing the songs... Not today the girls have decided they want to learn spanish!!! They are teaching each other words that they believe are spanish words, it doesn't sound like spanish. I guess I have to take into consideration that without R's and sometimes L's it doesn't always sound like English when they talk!!! HAHAHAHA Most of my cousin's and some of my friends are learning new languages and about the countries that go with those languages as they plan on traveling there!! I want to travel again soon. Norwegian, German, and Spanish seem to be the languages to learn for my family!!! Men are asking me out and IMing me. I haven't even had my niece take my pictures yet to display I just took my profile picture from facebook. The response is a little overwhelming... Truthfully it put me over the top!!! I don't know what happened that all of a sudden they all seemed to be coming out of the woodwork!!! For just a few moments I thought I had to say yes to the dates and the next thing I know I am running to the toilet to throw up!!!! (My body loves to keep me on my toes!!! I need to go to my voodoo doctor and have her do some muscle energy work!!!) Today was a good day for managing my body anxiety!!! I had to tell myself that I was safe and I did not have to accept dates just because I was asked. Woo Hoo! (I think I might go back to the idea of letting my 5 yr old grandson take care of my social life!!!)
Tonight my grand daughter Bailey is having a sleepover with grandma! When I went over to my house today (and had a wonderful surprise of all the girls getting along and all the chores had been done!!!) Hailee and Lexi were going over to play at their friend's house. There are little girls their age that live in the circle across the street from my house. It has been so nice for them to be able to be in a neighborhood that has best friends like when we were little kids. There aren't any little girls Bailey's age in the neighborhood :( and she feels left out... So she gets to have her grandma friend tonight. She was being such a little cutie. We discussed how we were are going to do her hair tomorrow now that she has her new hair cut. She went with me over to a friend's house and played with my friend's grand daughter. We watched Pitch Perfect together (Bailey's pic!!!). When she looked over at me during the movie, she watched me struggle with getting the bandages back on my body. She just started to help me with it. (My surgeon told me to go get massages to help break up the scarring and staples! I just have to love a man that insists that I go get massages!!!) Well it is late and I am actually very tired and ready to go to sleep. Good night!!! Oh BTW my friend Modil that has been very ill, is going in for another surgery next week and I would so very much appreciate you including her and her doctors in your prayers!!! I have just recently gotten on some facebook single sites... I can see the flirting that is going on and it is like I have forgotten that language!!! And one of my dear friends from high school is on there and I can see her flirty post messages!!! So weird it is like I have a window into everyones dating lives!!! My friend has always been good at flirting!!! She flirts with a little more sophistication now, however, it makes me feel like a teenager all over again!!! (No wonder I have been singing with my hairbrush microphone!!! Lol)
My family and friends tell me I can't date unless they approve of the guy because my picker is broken!!! Lol I told them that isn't going to work because they all approved of my second husband! I am just going to have to rely God or my grandson!!! My grandson offered to walk down main street in the little Idaho town they live in to help me find a husband!!! He is 5! He also last summer asked me if I used to be married to Papa horsey. When I told him yes, the next time he saw both of us at the same family function he tried to do a little match making! HAHAHAHA!!!!! His dad, my son, told him to stop trying to get us together!!! I think they might have had a talk about it a little later when everyone was gone. He is bound and determined to find me a husband!!! I haven't stayed with them for awhile! I miss them! I am not bound and determined to find a husband!!! Twice burned makes me just a little gun shy!!!! I am however, looking for single friends. It feels so weird to be the only single person with my married friends!!! Not that I want to get rid of my married friends they have been there for me and are totally awesome and helpful!!! I have asked my niece to take pictures of me to put on the facebook single sites!!! I need to look my best!!! She has a little side business of taking prom, graduation and now I have taken her into the dating site world!!!! Lol I have no anxiety about this!!! Woo Hoo!!! I am looking forward to having fun!!! Tonight as I was talking to a couple while we were sitting waiting for our turn to go into the church office I heard the wife's' story of a time recently when she had her Guardian Angels with her. She had recently been to New Orleans and had arrived late to her hotel. The only parking spaces available were far in the back of the hotel. She pulled into a spot where it is rainy and very dark. She got out of her car and started to go around to the back when a car pulled up and 2 guys got out of the car with guns and held her at gun point demanding the keys for the car. The Guardian Angels were there... Keys were in the bottom of her purse and it took her quite some time to find her keys. The gunman didn't just grab her purse where all her ID and debit and credit cards were. They took her cell phone and held the gun to her stomach and then to her head and waited for her to find her keys. When they got the keys one of the men jumped into her rental car and she asked if she could get her suitcase. I believe that her asking for her suitcase threw the gun men off from their regular routine.They took off out of the parking lot and were stopped at the street light right there. As she started to go towards the hotel to call the police. she saw the backup lights come on and the men started backing up towards her. She saw them rolling down the window. She knew they were coming back to kill her as she had seen their faces and could most likely identify them. Her Guardian Angels whispered to her to hold still to not move. She held still and said it was like she was in a bubble and it was very still and quiet in the bubble even though it was raining. The men stopped and were looking towards her and then they took off. Her Guardian Angels had kept her where the gun men couldn't see her!!! She looked in the news to see if the car jacking had been reported in the news the next night. It wasn't. All the reports about recent car jackings were that there had been a rash of them in the area. The reports stated that all of the people that had been car jacked had been shot and killed. Their bodies were found dumped away from the scene of the car jacking. It wasn't her time and the Guardian Angels kept her alive. What an amazing testimony of Guardian Angels! As I listened to her experience it reminded me of an experience that happened to me in 2010. I was in a situation that was very scary and I knew that I was in danger. I stood at the end of the hall and heard my Guardian Angel whisper to me stand still he doesn't see you. I was terrified and I too felt as though I was in a bubble that was still and quiet. I felt like I was being held so I couldn't move as he came towards me. He was about 2 feet away from me and then he turned and left the room and the house. I don't think I would have died as the lady that told me her experience would have, however, I knew I was in grave danger. I have avoided the street that the house is on for many years now. I am so thankful for my Guardian Angels!!! My motto (that I stole from Scarlet O'Hara) Tomorrow is another day, I am going with very strongly tonight! There seems to be a couple of days of a disturbance in the Universe for my family! Nothing seems to be going just quite right!!! It was starting to get me really down... The reason for my emergency call to my daughter! I knew the job she thought she was getting was filled before one of the bosses that talked to her realized. She was feeling down about not getting this job after all. My cousin was having some difficulties getting everything under control with her move to Idaho and she was struggling with the challenges... Mom was sick and tired literally, and feeling down... And my incision line came open again without me realizing it!!! I couldn't stand it anymore!!! I called Danielle and said come on over, grab some junk food on your way and put our feeling down into feeling good! We had some texting after that trying to decide on the comfort junk food and then she called me. She tells me Jordan is having a tough day as well! Okay now it has just been confirmed... There is a serious rift in the Universe!!!! When Danielle and Jordan arrived with comfort junk food we then found out the seriousness of this rift!!! There was some binge watching infidelity going on!!!! Lol (Okay that is the straw that broke the camel's back!!!!) Not only were we feeling a little down, binge watching infidelity meant the show we were going to watch could not be seen, because no one was in the same place!!! It now took some serious brain power to figure what to watch!!! We came up with Avengers Infinity War... Might as well go with a movie about a rift in the Universe when there is a rift in the Universe!!!! Tomorrow is another day!!! Oh and BTW it is Sunday!!! How did this week go by so fast!!! |
I am Ally. I am the center of my universe and I can determine whether to be a victim, survivor or thriver. At one time or another I have been all of the above... I am choosing to thrive!
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